Coming Soon

I'm 8 months pregnant now.Things seem to be falling into place.I finally have my own apartment.I filed for section 8 so that its a little cheaper for me and my new family to live there.My boyfriend got him a job now.I'm really proud of him, hes actually maturing and is really excited for this baby to get here.I'm excited too.I know that I will raise my baby with all the right morals.I want my baby to be smart so that it wont make the same mistakes I did.Next year I will be turning 16 then I could finally get a job and help out with the bills and other things.One thing I learned from having a baby at this age is that I had to grow up very fast I had no room for mistakes.My decisions that I make will effect not only me but my baby now.From here on out I will try my best at everything I do.OH and if i forgot to tell you im having a boy! :) Well talk to you guys soon

Happy family?

Me and my boyfriend got into BIG argument today.It was over money that I ask him not to spend because we need to start saving for our baby that's on the way.But he decide to go out and buy $30 worth of weed.Am I wrong for getting mad.Like hes not understanding that a baby cost a lot of money.My side of the family told me they are not going to support me.We need to start looking for apartments and buying baby clothes and other things.With him dropping out of high school so he could make a little money on the streets and me not even being able to get a job because I'm to young, we're broke.His mom gives him a little money here and there but he goes out and spend it as soon as he gets it.I'm starting to regret the decision I made.Maybe I should start concerning abortion.At the rate we're going we might not even be together in end, and lord knows I cant raise a baby on my own.I hope he get his act together soon.

Mommy to be

Its been a long hard 6weeks.Wanna know what I chose to do? I actually chose to keep it.My family looked down upon when I told them but my boyfriend was so happy.I'm just hoping everything works out in a good way.My birthday next month.I'll be turning 15 and ill be 3 months pregnant.The baby nurse told me I have a high chance of having a premature baby because of  how young I am.She also told me I have to eat very health, cut back on the junk foods and to do a little exercising.I never knew you could exercise while your pregnant.I hate exercising, but ill do it so my baby could come out normal.To be honest I'm scared.I don't want my baby to be ugly or have any mental problems.But regardless imma love it with all my heart and try to be the best mother I can be.My mama taught me to hope for the best but be prepare for the worst, Lets just pray nothing goes wrong

Take the lead

Its been a week since I last check in with you guys. I went to the clinic and they gave information about teen pregnancy.They told me I had up to 2 weeks to decided weather I want to keep this thing growing inside of me.They asked me my age and I was kind of ashamed to tell them that im only 14.What does a 14 year old girl know about raising a baby? I know NOTHING. I see my mother struggle raising my little siblings and it makes me think will I have to struggle if I decide to keep mines.I hope not.My boyfriend and family is already starting to act different.They don't give me the attention they use to give before we found out about me being pregnant.Some days my boyfriend tells me im his everything and he cant wait til we become a family, and other days I feel like he hates me.He tells me I never find anyone that is willing to be with me. I never understood boys. God just lead me in the right direction, I'm lost.

Where did I go wrong

Well here I am asking myself where did I go wrong.I didn't mean to get pregnant.I don't know what to do or where to go from here.Do I keep it or do I abort it? My boyfriend says if I kill his baby he will leave me. I need him in my life.Hes the only thing I have left.My side of the family say if I keep this baby I will have to find somewhere else to go. Our home is already overly crowded. I'm stuck between a rock and a hard space. Lord please help me